ဒီေန႔ ဘာေတြလုပ္သင္႔သလဲ?

ဒီေန႔ ၂ ဒီဂရီတဲ႔ဗ်ာ။ Centigrade ကုိေၿပာတာေနာ္။ အၿပင္မွာ အရမ္းကုိေအးေနၿပီ။ ဒီလုိေအးေအးခ်မ္းခ်မ္းရွိေနတဲ႔ ေန႔ေလးမွာ အိမ္ထဲမွာေအာင္းၿပီး စာေလးဖတ္လုိက္၊ ကဗ်ာေလးေရးလုိက္၊ Blog ေလးကုိ update လုပ္လုိက္နဲဲ႔ပဲ အခ်ိ္န္ၿဖဳန္းေနလုိက္ေတာ႔မယ္။ လက္ကြက္ရုိက္တာ ေႏွးေတာ႔ေႏွးေနေသးတယ္။ ဒါေပမယ္႔ ႀကိဳးစားေနပါတယ္။ လင္ကြန္းရဲ ႔ စကားကုိ အဌားယူသုံးလုိက္ဦးမယ္။

“I’m a slow walker but I never turn back” တဲ႔။

အဲလုိပဲဗ်။ တစ္ၿခားသူေတြကုိ လုိက္မမွီေတာ႔ရင္ အဲဒီ႔စကားနဲ႔ ကုိယ္႔ကုိယ္ကုိ ခဏစိတ္ခ်မ္းသာခုိင္းလုိက္တယ္။ ေပၚလီယာနာရဲ ႔ အေကာင္းၿမင္စိတ္လုိေပါ႔ဗ်ာ။
ဒါေပသည္႔ ကုိုယ္ဘာေကာင္လဲဆုိတာေတာ႔ ကုိယ္႔ကုိယ္ကုိပဲ အသိဆုံးပါ။ ဟုတ္တယ္ဟုတ္။

ႏွလုံးသားမပါဘဲ ခ်စ္ႀကည္႔

ကၽြန္ေတာ္ သူမကုိ သိပ္သတိရေနခဲ႔တာ ဒီေန႔ဆုိ ( ) ရက္ရွိၿပီ။ သူမနဲ႔ေၿပာခဲ႔တဲ႔ အေႀကာင္းအရာေတြက ခုထိကၽြန္ေတာ္႔ရင္ထဲမွာ လန္းဆန္းေနဆဲပဲ။ Computer ထဲမွာ သူမနဲ႔ပတ္သက္တာေတြရွိေနေပမယ္႔ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ ဖြင္႔မႀကည္႔ၿဖစ္တာ၊ ဖြင္႔မႀကည္႔ၿဖစ္ဖုိ႔ စိ္တ္ထိန္းခဲ႔တာ ေတာ္ေတာ္ႀကာသြားခဲ႔ၿပီ။

တကယ္ဆုိေ၀းသြားခဲ႔ႀကတာေသခ်ာသြားပါၿပီ။ ႏွလုံးသားထဲမွာ က်န္ရစ္ခဲ႔တဲ႔ရင္ခုန္သံတုိးတုိးေလး တစ္ခ်ဳိ႔ကို နားလည္ေအာင္ ႏွစ္သိမ္႔အားေပးေနရင္း ေလ်ာ႔က်သြားခဲ႔တဲ႔စိတ္အင္အားကုိ ၿပန္လည္ၿဖည္႔တင္းေနရတဲ႔အခ်ိန္အတြင္းမွာ ဘာတစ္ခုမွ ၿဖစ္ေၿမာက္ေအာင္ မလုပ္ႏုိင္ခဲ႔တဲ႔ ကုိယ္႔ကုိယ္ကုိ သိပ္စိတ္မဆုိးခ်င္ေတာ႔ပါဘူး။

သူငယ္ခ်င္းတစ္ေယာက္ကအားေပးတာလား၊ ေနာက္တာလားေတာ႔မသိပါဘူး။
“ေဟ႔ေကာင္၊ ႏွလုံးသားမပါဘဲ ခ်စ္ႀကည္႔” တဲ႔။
သူငယ္ခ်င္း၊ အသည္းကြဲရင္ ဆယ္ခါၿပန္ကြဲရဲတယ္။ ရင္ခုန္သံနဲ႔ ထပ္တူမၿပဳဘဲ မခ်စ္တတ္တာေတာ႔ ခြင္႔လႊတ္ကြာ။
ဒီလုိနဲ႔အသည္းကြဲခဲ႔ေပါင္းလည္းမ်ားၿပီ။
ဘုိဘုိရဲ ႔ “မင္းမွန္ပါတယ္” သီခ်င္းထဲကလုိ “ဒီတစ္ခါေနာက္ဆုံးအႀကိမ္ပါ” လုိ႔ေၿပာရမလုိၿဖစ္ေနၿပီဗ်ာ။

ဒါေပမယ္႔ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ အခ်စ္ကုိေလးစားေနဆဲပါ။ အခ်စ္ရဲ ႔စြမ္းအားကုိ ယံုႀကည္ေနဆဲပါ။ အေႀကာင္းမတုိက္ဆုိင္လုိ႔ ေ၀းသြားႀကရေပမယ္႔ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ သူမကုိ မနာႀကည္းပါဘူး။ သူမရဲ ႔ လုပ္ရပ္ေတြ သိပ္ၿပီးေတာ႔ညွာတာေထာက္ထားခ်င္း မရွိေပမယ္႔ ကၽြန္ေတာ္သူမကုိခြင္႔လႊတ္နားလည္ႏုိင္ေအာင္ ႀကိဳးစားေနဆဲပါ။ ကၽြန္ေတာ္႔ရင္ထဲကဆူးကုိကၽြန္ေတာ္႔ဘာသာ ထြင္ေနရင္း သူမရင္ထဲမွာ ဘာဆူးမွ မက်န္ေအာင္ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ညင္ညင္သာသာေလးႀကိဳးစားေပးခဲ႔တာ သူမ ရိပ္မိမွာမဟုတ္ပါဘူးေလ။
အဲဒါကၽြန္ေတာ္႔ရဲ ႔ သူမအေပၚထားရွိတဲ႔ အခ်စ္ပါ…
ငယ္ငယ္တုန္းက ႀကည္႔ခဲ႔တဲ႔ ဒ႑ာရီရုပ္ရွင္ထဲက ေနာက္ဆုံးပိ္တ္ ကဗ်ာေလးကုိ မွတ္မွတ္ရရ တမ္းတမ္းတတ ဆုိညည္းႀကည္႔မိတယ္။

“ခ်စ္သူ႔ႏွူတ္ခမ္း
လြမ္း၍နမ္းလည္း
နမ္းရာမထင္
လြမ္းရာထင္သည္
ရင္မွာၿငိၿပီ
ဒ႑ာရီ…” တဲ႔။

Heart ထိတယ္ဗ်ာ…ကားခနဲပဲ။

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အေ၀းမွာေနရတာၾကာလာေတာ႔ ကုိယ္႔ရင္ထဲမွာ Potentials ေတြမ်ားလာတယ္။ Stress ေတြလည္းပါတာေပါ႔ဗ်ာ။ အဆင္ေၿပေနတယ္ဆုိရင္ေတာင္မွ အနည္းဆုံးသူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြကုိလြမ္းတယ္။ အိမ္ကုိလြမ္းတာေတာ႔ ဘာေၿပာေကာင္းမလဲ။ ကုိယ္႔ရဲ႔ Blog ထဲမွာ ရင္ထဲက Tensions ေလးေတြ ကုိ ပုံစံေလးေၿပာင္းၿပီး ခ်ေရးလုိက္ရတာ အရမ္းမုိက္တယ္။ Bloggers ေတြအခ်င္းခ်င္း ပညာဖလွယ္ရတာလည္း ႀကည္ႏူးစရာပါပဲ။ မုိးလင္းၿပီ။ Class သြားလုိက္ဦးမယ္ဗ်ဳိ႕႔......

Me and the paradox!

Sometimes, I am a bird
flying high to the sky and soaring over the river

Sometimes, I am a young man
setting goals and charging towards them

Sometimes, I am a lazybone
sleeping in the bed and skipping my morning classes

Sometimes, I am a man
being loved and looked upon by my family members and other needies

Sometimes, I am a loner
missing home and longing for the love from faraway land

Sometimes, I am an insane person
feeling so nervous and knowing nothing to do

Sometimes, I am a wise man
sitting calm and thinking about the relationship between me and the world

Life has bright and dark sides
So does my life have
To taste the essence of the warm sunny day
I am now walking in the cold windy night...

I wish the night is not too long nor too short
If the night is too short, my works would not be so special
If the night is too long, I am doubtful about my endurance

I don't have the right to choose the longevity but the quality of my life.
Cause 'I am the captain of my soul' but not the creator of it!

(I wish I could write my poem in Burmese!)

"Big Dancing Small Town" makes big news in America!

These two guys make the headline news in America. They are described in 'Good morning America', 'Indy Star', and in many other newspapers in Maryland, Georgia, etc. and they got the national accalim too. Watch it and appreciate their creativity and sense of humor. And also read how the viewers left their feedbacks on youtube website.

Love the conquerer...

I rented an apartment in the third week of January and it's been about two weeks I am living here. Living in Fraternity is expensive but I don't need to worry about cooking food at all. At my new place, everything has to be done by myself. I have to cook, clean, wash, throw the garbage and do house chores. And I also have to think when I should go shopping and how much I should spend for this week or so.

On the other hand, it took me a lot of time to set up Internet. My partner is doing nothing for our house. It sucks! But, at least, he is paying half of my rent. I must thank him for that payment and for not giving me trouble so far.

Well, complaints are not the solutions to the problem. I must do what I gotta do. So, just stay tuned to your mind and charge forward. I'm now making an expense list for the past two weeks. I know I spent a lot of money on ebay shopping. But, I went shopping mostly for my nieces and my sister back home. I bought USB Flash Drives, 1 GB SD memory card, 2 batteries and charger, and a charger for my phone. They are worth to spend. I also bought one SkypeIn and one SkypeOut account. I did a thorough research to get the number I really want and finally I got it. I spent around $ 110. But, I also sold a graphic calculator to a student for $ 70. So, it's not bad at all. I spent only $ 40 overall. Moreover, I also sold my lamp for $ 15 and got an offer of $ 15 for my fridge. So, they would make $ 30. To sum up, I spent only $ 10 (40-30) for my family and myself. And my sister, my mom and my nieces would be happy to get the presents from me. Furthermore, I'm getting one year unlimited call in Skype and 3 months subscription for my SkypeIn number. Good job, man!

I'm a bit struggling with Physics and Combinatorics Math. But, I won't drop them. I will try to recover from the mess during this weekend. I'm losing some points for late Homeworks. But, I'm not losing yet. And I'm not born to lose! I recovered from depression last semester. And I headed up from my unhealthy love relationship. So, why should I worry about more upcoming challenges? Come on! Taste my blood!

Fluctuation and Confusion

I don't know what to do next. That's funny.
And that's frustrating too. I always wanna be a desicive person taking actions with a focused mind. I'm now at the crossroads of opportunities. I don't know which one I should grab and which one I should let go. Each way has its own strength and weakness. I found one chance which will make my life easier than ever. But, I'm reluctant to go that way because it's against my inner desire.

When you are confused, you become fluctuated. When you fluctuate, you become confused. What a vicious cycle!
Well, the best way to solve this problem is to sleep now.
It's enough for today to get confused. I still have tomorrows yet to come.
:D

Cook and clean...

I got up late today. After tidying up my room a bit, I cleaned up the living room and took out the stuffs from the bags. I wished I had internet so that I could play my favorite music while I was cleaning my house.

Then, I cooked Chicken with Potatoes. While I was waiting for the food to be done, I made a cup of Cocoa. Wow. It's delicious. Mai hasn't come back yet. I later found out that he forgot his key. Haha, poor kid...

Everybody was going to the Inauguration party. I had very limited time and thus I decided to stay at home and do house chores. I miss you, honey. I miss you.
When I cleaned the old stuffs, I found letters from my mom and sisters. I read them again and I cried a bit. I miss home. When can i go back home? When shall I have a chance to go back and meet my family there?

I paid all the items bought from ebay this evening coz these packages should be received by Feb. 2. Oh, I forgot to mention one more thing. I wrote some pages in my diary today.